history part 8

i felt unease. we are friends. (that's what i think) friends should be friends as in normal way. why mummy had to see him? why he had to come in to say hi? why he agreed to come into my house meeting mummy? my friends did say hi when they came, but i think this is a bit more than normal friends...

i decided that i want to start decrease the days of catch up outing wit him. well, you might say i'm stupid, but he did mentioned, now it's not the right timing, and i agree. few months later, we shall go to diff places which we yet to know. i don't want to 'addict' into this friend. and i didn't expect for anything more. so i made my mind, i am going to say no for today's outing.

it's february 10 2004.

he SMSed as usual for a drink. i said no, giving lame excuses of family dinner. but actually dinner was at 7pm instead of 10 plus at night which normal time we hang out. he sensed it i think. he said just for a while. i pushed it to family dinner.

he called (which he didn't do that often). i said busy for dinner with family. "it just a while. i need to talk to you. i come by later." he hung up. i didn't have the chance to spell a word..

"i'd reached." i almost forgotten trying to forget about tonight. "give me a minute" i grabbed keys that's what i manage to take and wearing the my sleeping suites (tee n shorts). i didn't think twice of rejecting him. and there was me, inside his cute lil car...