Monday, August 16, 2010

to change

i'm so lazy, i cant even write out a draft itinery on my trip. well not really need to be a serious one, but just for my visa application. I read like reaching 100 post on it, and i havent have a brief idea where i wan2 go, coz i wan2 go theme park, i wan2 go all da shopping streets, i wan this n i wan that, end up i dunno what is my priority and whats not. seems to be all are important and must-see places.

i hate fb , it jus has no privacy that i jus jus simply click on any1 inmy lists, to view at all their photos, fine i know it is all about, but i still ... well sometimes wan2 keep it to close frens only. then F hate wat, some frens frens tend to be someone i used 2 know. yarks!

some is blocking fb n msn, but i still manage 2 on9 like 24/7, harlo.. can any1 here really BLOCK them so i cant manage 2 go thru though with these links given ...

at this point, i jus can't think much or plan further, but to let time to come, for my next move to be carried out. I know i nvr been ambitious type, i'm not keen in earning my 1st RM1 million in next couple of years, i jus wan2 go for my plans for these years, da basic plans that i wan for myself. Coz i know, once i found something in my current life, all my plans shall be kiv. i don wan2 change yet, i know myself well, im so into it when my life change, cross my fingers that, before i feel im satisfy, i'm willing to stop, then it will come to me. and the time, I am willing to be da one that i am so worry of. da one that i wan2 be, but at the sametime, I'm so scare due to the uncertainty but thats the risk i'm willing to take, cross my fingers

night and love

Monday, August 2, 2010

the never-ending job in the entire universe

There are things we unable to stop the time and redo it; or we want to go back time and re-write the history; or maybe we just hope we never leave so much of evidences of what we did. One of it I would say is this stupid mail sign up. As for me, I’m like those mailer addict shoppers/consumers. I’m tend to give my info to some brands/shops/things I’m keen to I can be keep update upon their latest activities and promo. I used to sign up for mailer updates from boutiques, foods, restaurants and some even like places I used to be. I check my email daily so easily, I deleted minimum 1 mail from these things I did. So I will like recall back my memories when I sign up for them. Oh I love this place so I sign up, I buy something from here, I hang out here before, I met my friends here, I hang out wif ex before, I love this shop a lot…. Some not so green company will send the mail via posts, so in a way to get rid of them, I have no choice but just to tear off my name and address before I dump into the bin. Life’s crazy when all these little matters are bothering you.

I just realize I have one ‘career woman’ friends among my circle. She works, and she didn’t do any household. that’s the one I’m so envy. You see, some typical traditional Chinese thinking family like mine, is pushing me to the corner. Let’s say household such as laundry. You see there’s invention of washing machines since like stone age, from shirts, skirts, pants, just dump in and put in the washing detergent/powder then just on. The magic will start to wash by itself then wait till it’s done. I personally am facing this issue, which I don’t understand. The females in family, pushing me to hand wash my own lingerie. Okay I started to wash mine since I’m 13. So now I started to work, and I just feel my hands are been very rough and dry. And I’m having this nail polish once while. I don’t even have that much time to really bath myself that details sometimes, and now I need to keep washing my lingerie that often? Daily they will nag me as if nobody business, I wonder maybe they think I’m too perfect so want to start picky on me. I am just so lazy. Why they can’t agree when I just dump all in into the machines and let them do the job. My hands are not rich mistress hands, but I myself have the responsibility to take care of them!
To me, I don’t want to touch the broom, unless I can’t take it anymore. I think my last time was when no one at the house, then someone is coming over. So I sweep and mop the floor. I have this habit over mop that, I must mop the floor twice. But I prefer sweep and mop than doing the laundry. And one more, to collect the dried washed clothes and fold it. Oh my god. Especially when I’m not in good mood, the stupid clothes seems never ending of the quantities. Worse of all, the nag is like the annoying sounds keep humming next to my ears.

I wonder why to the family, female must be the one go into the kitchen and do the job. Who set the rules woman must be the one taking all the jobs of washing dishes, preparing the meals. Who? Who? I do hope I no need to be full time housewife. I just hate it. ARGH… but now I’m living life as ‘career’ woman… heheheh bless me.