Tuesday, July 28, 2009

mana lu pigi

My beloved colleagues seems to very keen in my love life. I admit i am keen and can't hardly wait for the right man, but you know, if you're having my kind of life, the chances to get a partner, equal to zero.

you see, my typical schedule of Mondays to Sundays are :

Mondays / Wednesdays/Fridays:
7.00- 7.30 - rushing for work
8.30-5.30 - work work work
6.00-8.00 - yoga
9.00 - 11.00 - watch tv, surf web.
11.00-11.30 - sleep ZzzzZz

Tuesdays/Thursdays:
7.00 - 7.30 - rushing for work
8.30 - 5.30- kerja kerja kerja
7.00 - 11.00 - tv, online, stick on sofa all nite
11.00-11.30- Sleep Zzzzz

Saturdays/Sundays:
normally wake up at 9.00 - 11.00 am.
12.00-02.00-brunch
normally i will hang out with sis at malls/friends(coursemates, all female)/whole day at home.

so.. you see where to find dates? i don't even have all these chances...

well, i know, 25 is a sign, either i will meet the right guy within years, if in coming years, i am still single..then i am going to have a fund, a bacheloratte fund, to feed myself when elder days come.

p/s: please la, if you (my future bf) are lot, use GPS/buy a map book/google map; if you're not keen , at least give me a sign; if you never appear (which i am preparing, but i hope it's not true), can send someone to tell me?


sigh.. i just want to fall in love, is it that 'mission impossible'?

Monday, July 27, 2009

imperfect

today received a forward email from friend, a tv commercial by late Yasmin Ahmad.

it's about a funeral, the husband passed away, his wife shared about his all imperfections, which made all the people laughed, but all these also, made her remembered him well.

she says, " It is all these little imperfections, that makes them perfect for us. "

all the snorings, the tooth picking actions, the dummies actions, ... make us feel the person which doesnt suit us, but afterall, all these imperfects, make the person perfect for us..

i accept him for who he is, include all the imperfects that came together, but it's alright, coz i am searching the next imperfect person out there for me.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

0725-worlds within


just now watching the drama in tv, the guy pak tor with this gal for sometimes. it's very cute at some parts, esp one scene, where they both sleeping 2gether for the very first time. the next morning, both of them try 2 act cool and 'experience' in handling the situations and conversations, but act , they were both shy to telling the feelings inside, instead just act cool and pretend as if nothing special happened.. cute seeing their expressions but which i find it very agreeable which it turn out this way in real life..

at the end of da episode, guy felt he don't know well about this gal who sit right next to her.. but he knows..

they are in love not bcoz of they knowing each other, it's because they don't know each other.

Monday, July 20, 2009

respond

i really have slow respond when come to issues involving works and jobs. today should be a good starts of the week, mana tau, i forget to watch weather forecast, din take my raincoat , 'the heavy rains + storming + lightning' all come in one shot... wow.... kill the mood on the 1st day of week..really weird.. people pregnant , dia preganant, the mood so.. 'weather' type.. all people there have to be very careful everyday..

Sunday, July 19, 2009

幸福

幸福其實是一種心靈感覺。

在某一刻,心裡會被某件事物 或某句說話 觸動而感到一絲絲甜美的滿足感,那便是幸福。

每個人的感情世界就好似一道門,隨著年歲的增長,門檻愈來愈高,對幸福的要求也愈來愈高,甚至將它物質化,將追求幸福視為一件大事、一個大目標。於是,令到自己常常覺得不快樂,離幸福愈來愈遠.


i didn't set high requirements.. never . i am waiting for my happiness

Saturday, July 18, 2009

moody

can u imagine dropping tears within ten seconds? i can make it.. easily.. by just thinking/mentioning/getting news from the past..
scary right? i thought so..

some says, to forget, is to restart
some says, to move on, is to let go
some says, to be happy, just an options.

By asked me, if i want to have a talk with past?
i asked myself, can i even take it?

i don't think so. it's not a good end in past, how can i face it?
i know, if i happened to meet past in real life, 1st thing comes in mind : RUN FOR MY LIFE

The best way to overcome fear is to face it. but what happen next?
i know i'm those not easily let things go person. i can't being noble, i can't pretend nothing ever happen, i can't put things aside.

i have feelings, a lot of feelings, which i know, if i know more and more, i will be curious to dig, curious to know, which resulted in sad, anger, madness.

i choose to avoid, i choose to delete, i choose to stay away, no harm to myself, it's the best actually.

i'm sorry, i'm not interested to know. i'm not keen to know anything. so don't tell me, don;t let me know. coz i choose happiness, i choose smile, i choose gay, i choose passion, i choose relaxation, i choose freedom, i choose myself.

i'm not going to stick with the person, who don't share my passion, who don't share my joy, who don't share my sadness, who don't share my problems, who runaway from me, who turns me down.

i love you.

for me - 18 months

luxury thoughts

today i went to 'luxury window shopping ' trip with my friends, milky, gal wif hubby + Tavia.



our 1st stop is Burberry. it's always my dream to get 1 branded bag, or more than that. sigh but i always be the 1st person to turn away as the bills cut off my dreams.. well i swear.. soon i will walk in to BURBERRY , get my dream IT BAG, paying in cash wif all RM50 notes.. yeah.. cash only... i will do that.



somehow, back to reality, i know when i have rm5k , i rather spend the money on my monthly expenses, my food, my ice cream, my food..



u see RM 5,000 can get you either 1 normal canvas middle size handbag, but you can get:



1. easily approximate 160 pin of baskin robbin during 31% discount, or



2. easily 160 times of fine japanese dining which u spent let say rm 30, or 100 times if you spent rm50 each time, or



3. 125 boxes of my favourite and best dark chocolate so far i tried in life-ROYCE.. yeah~~royce banzai~~



so will i buy RM5k bag.. or one of the mnetion above?? emmm
let's see...

Monday, July 6, 2009

6 July

when i'm busy with work for past two weeks, i thought i will be fine. i thought when i hanging out wif friends for past weekends, i should be happy .
somehow, da history appears again. i know i should be better, or getting better, sigh.. i recall of history.. some moments of history around.
i know it's part of my life which makes me who i am today, i can't delete it or erase as if nothing ever happened. but i try not to have all the negative thinkings or thoughts on it, and seeing it as part of memories which happened in past years.
back to some good things..
Saturday i went to Italiannies with uni friends in conjunction of the sissy friend came back from s'pore.. haha da sissy plan 2 treat us but seems like da bill was a bit too much.. so i choose 2 settle my part..