Letter for you- i

Dear You,

i felt like want to contact you, but not having the guts to call, sms..... so here i am... writing this letter for you, since the seperation sometimes back.

i kept thinking what if things been solved? then i wont keep think IF IF IF in mind.. this is not what i always want of being uncertain about things in life.

u always say:
i din think on ur side
i kept make u being 'luxury' life
i din helped on ur probs
i'm being bad tempered
i'm being selfish
i'm being inconsiderate
i'm being playful
i din fulfill ur wish
i din put on make-up
i din wear what the other gals wear
i kept wearing jeans

BUT, u know what

i cooked a full set meal (dishes + soup) JUST FOR YOU 1st time in my life

i tried on make-up 1st time in my life JUST FOR YOU...(which i am still exploring)

i learnt and drove all da way to KLIA just to fetch u, so tat u no need 2 take the long hour bus trip...plus, i just learnt klang valley roads like few months... plus its night.....

i tried to mix wif ppl around u, ur family, ur frens... i went trip wif ur frens which i don even know who they are... but u giv me black face wh i brouhgt u met up wif my gang...

i cant being wif u there...but i listened to ur troubles and probs daily.... pushing myself so hard to solve for you..

i gave my time 24/7 for you,whenever you're around...

i swear that i din outing/dating/seeking any guy at all...

i'm being myself all these while, but i know slight changes might be a good way, y not i giv it a try rite? but seems like i lost myself.. i juggle btw whom u want me to be and being who i am.

i know tolerate is what i lack of, i accept you as the person when i knew you, why things being changed??or i changed?