history part 20

there's one time, we need to meet up ur coursemate to get things from her. yea her.. female frens of every bf are 'bitches/soon-to-be-bitches' which really annoying.

however, i hav no comment since she is helping u on ur study. so we walk walk like usual holding hands to meet her up.we were walking down da staircase and i saw a gal standing right down at the staircase standing back facing our directions. all of sudden, u notice her appearance as well, my hand was left 'alone' by urs... omg u step on my anger point. u straight away drop my hands and walk around 2x speed than our spped b4 this towards her, then i was left alone behind standing right there dunno if i should come later following u, intro myself as ur gf....

back 2 reality, i stand there right behind both of u, 'act busy', looking at the flow of people around.. u both seems very 'into' the exchange of conversations as if din seeing each other for ten yrs i guess.

later, when u back 2 reality, oh i think u remembered u did bring 1 puppy wif u jus now, aka me, left alone behind u 2. u giving me the smile whenever u did something 'wrong/'forget' abt me most of the times. i smile to her though i din intro myself. u ran to me and giving da same smile again. u knew what will happened next.

"very happy 2 see her, aren't u?"
"long time din see her dy rite"
"i m just 'happned' to tag along companying u rite?"
"u drop my hand and ran to her, r u?"
"i am gf, am i?"
shouldnt u be intro me to her? instead of dropping my hand and act as if i din appear at all?"
"im just companion to meet her, rite?"
"u react ,talk and smile as if din meet her for 10 yrs,"
"i know i am nobody when comes to ur study life or so ever, but i am gf if im not mistaken"
"u like it if i drop urs front of my frens?"

as usual, u act like a small kid who try 2 get forgivness for making mistakes. i still give the same no respond face, but deep inside i start 2 think, it seems to be an unhealthy way of r/ship.

my normal face aka angry face keep showing whole day long. i really don understand, what makes a bf react such way.
its just a fren, which meet up to get things, what for da gf's hands need to be dropped and left behind all alone?

gf standing alone behind, dunno if she should walk front , 'interrupt and intro herself, or stand right where she is, and being the 'sporting gf".

being da 1st one seems keen to show off her status to the fren.. sigh ppl is a so call future dr like u. if i did that, gals normal reaction is, da gf v control over da bf. but i hav diff thoughts: y u did this? it should be a small issue, y we cant walk 2gether to ur frens and u guys start 2 do 'ur business' ?

u dunno how 2 respond over my questions .. u jus keep repeat that u din mean it, but ppl's reaction thru body language is the most natural answer given.

i am disappointed right when u dropped ur hand, i know its da moment, our distance gain further. u din intend to make me into ur life. after all the trusts and faith i given to this r/ship. u did this all of sudden. i nvr wan all these come btw the r/ship, but y this happened. mayb i am not good enuff for u i guess. a gf jus a gf, not really a gf that can tell the world. jus like how we ended, we no need 2 tell the world.

i wonder, will u still be doing this now? i don think so, coz u surely choose da 1 u wan2 be matched with. weird that i need 2 talk abt this small issue which keep play in mind.

i am celebrating 2nd anniversary single life in cmong 2 months, happy 2nd anniversary single to me,

xoxo
lynn