we started... sometimes i think it's kinda fast coz we just knew each other around 3 months. but i knew, i like this guy... a lot....
not soon after that, we had our 1st valentines's day 2gether. we din celeb but i remember well, i gave him a key chain, my 1st present for him....
his present for me it's a anklet. way back b4 we were couple. that was a gift from him on his trip to pg back then. my fren told me, anklet means he wanted to tie your leg, so you won't go far away from him.... =) i'm touched.... i keep wearing anklet till now, though it's not from him. i don't know why, but i love having something 'tie' on my leg....
falling in love is always sweet, esp it's the very starting moments. everything seems so sweet, happy, every lil things can make u smile... easily smile from ur heart. times seems 2 stop when being with him.
i remembered the most, it's our 1st trip 2 pg after started. our most memorable walk along the beach side of GD. i;m wering this heels and we walked from starting point till the end... my legs killing me but i din realised much, mayb the feelings of happiness had flooded me ... =)
i like da feelings of holding someone's hands....hands of guy i like a lot...
i like da feelings of talking to u... coz ur so smart....
i like look into ur eyes... coz i see me inside ur big eyes......
i like standing beside u... coz u had this nice smell...
i like seeing u smile... coz it melted my heart...
finally i found u... da guy with charming sunshine smile i'd been looking for.....
p/s: i missed ur smile a lot...
it reminded me of what i had before....
sun-shine smile =)
Friday, April 3, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
history part 9
as usual i said hi. then his car started to move..
he spell it out. the phrases which never cross my mind for the past few months nor today. i'm surprised and shocked. i was quiet for almost few minutes. i want to say yes, but i thought we had this talked before, why still we want to risk?
"can we jus try 1st?" i suggested. at least if we won't hurt that much if it's not officially couple.
"no. either yes or no" he sounded 'threaten".
i remain silence... i really don't know if this will be good or bad. but if we never try, we never know. i looked at him, he was driving. i like this guy, a lot ...
"okay." he held my right hand. coz i'm on the left seat. he started to hold my hand when he spelled it.
i'm in love, for the 1st time in my life.
i remembered the night till now... it's very simple with feelings within...
i'm touched.
it's February 10 2004.
Love can be so simple yet so complicated.....
he spell it out. the phrases which never cross my mind for the past few months nor today. i'm surprised and shocked. i was quiet for almost few minutes. i want to say yes, but i thought we had this talked before, why still we want to risk?
"can we jus try 1st?" i suggested. at least if we won't hurt that much if it's not officially couple.
"no. either yes or no" he sounded 'threaten".
i remain silence... i really don't know if this will be good or bad. but if we never try, we never know. i looked at him, he was driving. i like this guy, a lot ...
"okay." he held my right hand. coz i'm on the left seat. he started to hold my hand when he spelled it.
i'm in love, for the 1st time in my life.
i remembered the night till now... it's very simple with feelings within...
i'm touched.
it's February 10 2004.
Love can be so simple yet so complicated.....
history part 8
i felt unease. we are friends. (that's what i think) friends should be friends as in normal way. why mummy had to see him? why he had to come in to say hi? why he agreed to come into my house meeting mummy? my friends did say hi when they came, but i think this is a bit more than normal friends...
i decided that i want to start decrease the days of catch up outing wit him. well, you might say i'm stupid, but he did mentioned, now it's not the right timing, and i agree. few months later, we shall go to diff places which we yet to know. i don't want to 'addict' into this friend. and i didn't expect for anything more. so i made my mind, i am going to say no for today's outing.
it's february 10 2004.
he SMSed as usual for a drink. i said no, giving lame excuses of family dinner. but actually dinner was at 7pm instead of 10 plus at night which normal time we hang out. he sensed it i think. he said just for a while. i pushed it to family dinner.
he called (which he didn't do that often). i said busy for dinner with family. "it just a while. i need to talk to you. i come by later." he hung up. i didn't have the chance to spell a word..
"i'd reached." i almost forgotten trying to forget about tonight. "give me a minute" i grabbed keys that's what i manage to take and wearing the my sleeping suites (tee n shorts). i didn't think twice of rejecting him. and there was me, inside his cute lil car...
i decided that i want to start decrease the days of catch up outing wit him. well, you might say i'm stupid, but he did mentioned, now it's not the right timing, and i agree. few months later, we shall go to diff places which we yet to know. i don't want to 'addict' into this friend. and i didn't expect for anything more. so i made my mind, i am going to say no for today's outing.
it's february 10 2004.
he SMSed as usual for a drink. i said no, giving lame excuses of family dinner. but actually dinner was at 7pm instead of 10 plus at night which normal time we hang out. he sensed it i think. he said just for a while. i pushed it to family dinner.
he called (which he didn't do that often). i said busy for dinner with family. "it just a while. i need to talk to you. i come by later." he hung up. i didn't have the chance to spell a word..
"i'd reached." i almost forgotten trying to forget about tonight. "give me a minute" i grabbed keys that's what i manage to take and wearing the my sleeping suites (tee n shorts). i didn't think twice of rejecting him. and there was me, inside his cute lil car...
history part 7
then tat day we were planning for a movie... so i put on my tops wif skirts and heels... 1st time in my life that i'm wearing all these wif frens... then mummy started 2 felt weird, why the daughter kept out at nights, she's wearing something diff some more...
'hey ask your friend come in say hi'
'huh... why, i need to go dy'
'say hi only, very fast one lar'
'errr.... i try lar'
''err... my mom's inside, she want you to come and say hi'
'oh... okay', so he met my mom... and we were friends that time...... weird right?
inside his cute lil car, i felt weird... nevermind, i still want to watch movie...
gosh... we didn't make it as the time alre past... aiks~~~ i think it's my mom then made us can't catch up for the movie....
back at home, he sms me.
'i'm sorry... we didn't managed to watch the movie... sorry coz your wearing so nice n pretty ( if i'm not forgotton) and we didn't make it....
it's all because of mummy lar.... i didn't watch the movie...
but it's mummy, that i get his compliments....
heheh.... it's a sweet night....
smile into sleep
'hey ask your friend come in say hi'
'huh... why, i need to go dy'
'say hi only, very fast one lar'
'errr.... i try lar'
''err... my mom's inside, she want you to come and say hi'
'oh... okay', so he met my mom... and we were friends that time...... weird right?
inside his cute lil car, i felt weird... nevermind, i still want to watch movie...
gosh... we didn't make it as the time alre past... aiks~~~ i think it's my mom then made us can't catch up for the movie....
back at home, he sms me.
'i'm sorry... we didn't managed to watch the movie... sorry coz your wearing so nice n pretty ( if i'm not forgotton) and we didn't make it....
it's all because of mummy lar.... i didn't watch the movie...
but it's mummy, that i get his compliments....
heheh.... it's a sweet night....
smile into sleep
history part 6
February 2004.... it's Chinese New Year....
he's not local thus we were not seeing each other during the festive seasons. our 1st 'separated' after being 'close friends' for months. i missed him when he's not around coz we met almost 24/7. but we still kept our contact of SMS each other, calls not often but i personally prefer sms .... maybe i don't want to let him 'know' my feelings from my voice... so we sms... and those 'intimate words' started to spell out... '..... i don't like here... v boring... i hope your by my side now'................
i kept read it again and again.... the very old model of hp's buttons almost damaged after my non stop of repeating 'exercise'. i knew, i like this person, but i won't tell him. i need to think what i want for myself.... no matter how, i won't take the 1st step....
the super long days of 'seperated' ( i think it's just like 3 to 4 days afterall) seems to 'challenge' my feelings to him. then we straight away catch up the day he backed....
i remembered well the place, coz i met 3 people sitting few tables away... hahhha
then we continue usual 'schedule' of chit chat and what happened when we both not for each other.... i took his classic hp ( this was v stylish hp back in those day... nokia 3310 if not mistaken) started to play with it. i realised, when i felt shy , i have this habit of browsing people's hp, as if want to see what they had inside.
and i was there, MENU==>Messages==>inbox==> fong lynn
fong lynn
fong lynn
.......
i saw my name on the screen, not one not two... but all the messages in inbox (those days inbox only can kept up to 10 messages only )... it's all my correspondances with him.... something has really going on btw us.... just that we won't want to bring it out....
i smiled... inside my heart.... i felt happy ....i did.... =)
then we left the place.. walking back to his cute lil car.... i remembered, we past by the alley... it;s kinda dark... all of a sudden, i saw the thing i feared the most until now... MICE... and i just scream.... not really loud, but something like 'ARRrrrrr'.... my body just noturally moved aside avoid seeing it, and shit... i accidentally 'touched' him for the 1st time.... i was so embarassing....what am i doing....
but no worries, i'm a good actress of hiding and keep myself back 2 calmness..
so we end our 1st outing after 'long seperation'.....
i explore new things...
i knew my feelings...
we didn't spell out.....
but i knew
he has special place in my current life...
i like night time...
and it's february 04
he's not local thus we were not seeing each other during the festive seasons. our 1st 'separated' after being 'close friends' for months. i missed him when he's not around coz we met almost 24/7. but we still kept our contact of SMS each other, calls not often but i personally prefer sms .... maybe i don't want to let him 'know' my feelings from my voice... so we sms... and those 'intimate words' started to spell out... '..... i don't like here... v boring... i hope your by my side now'................
i kept read it again and again.... the very old model of hp's buttons almost damaged after my non stop of repeating 'exercise'. i knew, i like this person, but i won't tell him. i need to think what i want for myself.... no matter how, i won't take the 1st step....
the super long days of 'seperated' ( i think it's just like 3 to 4 days afterall) seems to 'challenge' my feelings to him. then we straight away catch up the day he backed....
i remembered well the place, coz i met 3 people sitting few tables away... hahhha
then we continue usual 'schedule' of chit chat and what happened when we both not for each other.... i took his classic hp ( this was v stylish hp back in those day... nokia 3310 if not mistaken) started to play with it. i realised, when i felt shy , i have this habit of browsing people's hp, as if want to see what they had inside.
and i was there, MENU==>Messages==>inbox==> fong lynn
fong lynn
fong lynn
.......
i saw my name on the screen, not one not two... but all the messages in inbox (those days inbox only can kept up to 10 messages only )... it's all my correspondances with him.... something has really going on btw us.... just that we won't want to bring it out....
i smiled... inside my heart.... i felt happy ....i did.... =)
then we left the place.. walking back to his cute lil car.... i remembered, we past by the alley... it;s kinda dark... all of a sudden, i saw the thing i feared the most until now... MICE... and i just scream.... not really loud, but something like 'ARRrrrrr'.... my body just noturally moved aside avoid seeing it, and shit... i accidentally 'touched' him for the 1st time.... i was so embarassing....what am i doing....
but no worries, i'm a good actress of hiding and keep myself back 2 calmness..
so we end our 1st outing after 'long seperation'.....
i explore new things...
i knew my feelings...
we didn't spell out.....
but i knew
he has special place in my current life...
i like night time...
and it's february 04
history part 5
things started to grow after the 1st outing to Nino's house. we sms, chat, hang out, friends interactions...
one day he mentioned he was going to work since instead of doing nothing at home. he said 'when i get my first pay, i shall treat you for a meal'. and there we were, at the place which i like the most of the food they served... HTK.. my favourite spot in as. it's an outdoor place, i don't think nowadays gals would actually go for outing in such place., but i still love it, mayb it's him i think....
so same cute lil car, same casual look of me wif home wear, he was in his same look wif shirt n knee length pants. our 1st meal together at this crowded HTK. then out of sudden b4 we get a seat, some1 called my name... a fren of mine or act its whole gang of friends which not so close but saying hi.... i felt bit weird actually, though nothing really happened..
so we get our food, having our 1st meal 2gether.... he treated me as promised... n i started to love the place much more than i used to...
it was January 2004....
we continue our outing, the time was night after his work, and mostly places like htk, or mamak stalls or mayb we just sat and have our talk... i don;t really mind anywhere... coz i knew.. that i started to seeing this person 24/7, and i think i had thoughts of crossing the friends border....
we did talked about the deeper friends' border, but i remember once he said 'times not right yet for me to get in relation as now i don;t know where will i go'.. i never ask and i never think further after that....
and it was January 04...
i like night time .... coz i can see you and we have a good talk of what we both experience during the day...
one day he mentioned he was going to work since instead of doing nothing at home. he said 'when i get my first pay, i shall treat you for a meal'. and there we were, at the place which i like the most of the food they served... HTK.. my favourite spot in as. it's an outdoor place, i don't think nowadays gals would actually go for outing in such place., but i still love it, mayb it's him i think....
so same cute lil car, same casual look of me wif home wear, he was in his same look wif shirt n knee length pants. our 1st meal together at this crowded HTK. then out of sudden b4 we get a seat, some1 called my name... a fren of mine or act its whole gang of friends which not so close but saying hi.... i felt bit weird actually, though nothing really happened..
so we get our food, having our 1st meal 2gether.... he treated me as promised... n i started to love the place much more than i used to...
it was January 2004....
we continue our outing, the time was night after his work, and mostly places like htk, or mamak stalls or mayb we just sat and have our talk... i don;t really mind anywhere... coz i knew.. that i started to seeing this person 24/7, and i think i had thoughts of crossing the friends border....
we did talked about the deeper friends' border, but i remember once he said 'times not right yet for me to get in relation as now i don;t know where will i go'.. i never ask and i never think further after that....
and it was January 04...
i like night time .... coz i can see you and we have a good talk of what we both experience during the day...
history part 4
so it is the day... sometimes in end of dec 2003 or might be early jan of 2004. he came as promised. he did knew where i'm staying coz my neighbour was a friend of his.. sometimes i wish the world is bigger, so when things become history, it won't keep remind you what you had been through
my attire was very typical casual wear, big size shirt + shorts knee length. i did asked myself b4 i went in the car, will he kidnapped me? hahhaa the next second, i'm inside his cute lil car and i might be kidnapped....
the journey to Nino's house around 40 minutes, but to me it's kinda like less than 40 minutes... we chat a lot, talked about things happened in life, tuition last time, school, people we knew...
finally, we reached. Nino said 'something happened btw two of u'. i kept thinking, not really it's just friends who visit friends, nothing more nothing less.....
then we were on our way back and sent me back, then my phone rang... my mom asked me fetched my bro from tuition.... so we were talked again in his car... the trip makes me feel kinda good that i finally get a friend who was outside from my circle of secondary schoolmates...
it's a rainy day if i'm not mistaken...
and i like rainy days....
my attire was very typical casual wear, big size shirt + shorts knee length. i did asked myself b4 i went in the car, will he kidnapped me? hahhaa the next second, i'm inside his cute lil car and i might be kidnapped....
the journey to Nino's house around 40 minutes, but to me it's kinda like less than 40 minutes... we chat a lot, talked about things happened in life, tuition last time, school, people we knew...
finally, we reached. Nino said 'something happened btw two of u'. i kept thinking, not really it's just friends who visit friends, nothing more nothing less.....
then we were on our way back and sent me back, then my phone rang... my mom asked me fetched my bro from tuition.... so we were talked again in his car... the trip makes me feel kinda good that i finally get a friend who was outside from my circle of secondary schoolmates...
it's a rainy day if i'm not mistaken...
and i like rainy days....
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